12/12/12 – Just Because It is Special

Posted: December 12, 2012 in Confessions

I started my day with a post, “A great way to spend 12/12/12/? Attend a wedding!

And whose wedding it is, you may ask.

It was a friend’s. A bride who made me the first man in her life, who is getting married to her last and best guy.

Happiness. Everywhere.

Happiness. Everywhere.

The people in our circle know that we are still good friends – something I must say that is quite a rare thing for former lovers to end up into, but until now, we managed to stay close, and be each other’s ‘soup for the soul’, if you may.

She invited me as early as the year 2012 started, a few weeks after she answered YES to her now husband’s big question. I told her that I was happy for both of them, as I have had a glimpse of how they were as partners in a relationship, from some talks from simple hi’s and hello’s every now and then, online chats to catch up on things about each other’s lives. And I meant it. And then she told me that I needed to be there on her wedding day. An invitation that took me almost a year to ponder, as to whether I would accept or just Β let go.

Well, I have been living my own life, and in all honesty, I never bothered myself to ask about how she is doing, because I definitely know that she is doing great. I was a man whom she used to fall in love with, but that was a long time ago. I cherish more the friendship that we have forged out of that ended relationship, when we were still trying to explore together the magic of love. We were young, Β we didn’t know much what we were supposed to do – and we broke up. The love died, naturally. And then we lived our separate lives. Years after, with the help of social networks and some common friends, we got in touch. And from there, we told ourselves that we would stay friends. And we really are better off that way, evidently.

And so, I decided to attend, with my best friend, as my plus one. I currently do not have a girlfriend, and what better way to attend a wedding than bringing with you your best wingman?

Justin, my bestfriend, used to kid with me about the wedding. He said in a chat, “Dude, when the priest asks if there is anyone who would want to disagree to continue this wedding ceremony, or whatever… you know what I am going to do? I would shout “AKO!”, and then I would give you a very suspicious look, and would make the people think it was you who shouted it. That would be so much fun!”

Good thing that part was removed in the ceremony. And I believe it is just okay. Why would you want to ask that anyway? πŸ™‚

For me, it was a mix of emotions, in a very very weird way. While she was walking down the aisle, with some hint of tears in her eyes, we were just overwhelmed by emotions as we watch her from a pew of San Agustin Church. It moved us. Anyone who was there would definitely be willing to shed a tear.

There was as if a battle of feelings I could not define.

Was I happy? Definitely, I am for them.

Was I mad? Why should I be? No, I was not.

Was I regretful? Initially, I thought I was. But then again, I told myself, “I wished for the best for this girl when we were together. And now I am seeing it with my own eyes, my wish for her coming true. And I should be thankful.”

I am thankful, that she got to get married to the best person for her. I could see in their eyes their joy, as Fred was waiting for Diane from the altar, that they couldn’t wait to get the blessing from the priest already. I felt like I wanted to give him a pat on the back – for a guy like me would never be able to give such happiness to a woman like her, given my situation now, the same way that he did, on their wedding. I do not wish for them to have a great and long lasting marriage, for I already know that they are going to have one.

It was a moment made in heaven, indeed. She used to share with me how her dream wedding is going to be. And she already had it. And it was close to perfection.

It was really a momentous, and well planned event. And with the bonus of GMA7 News featuring them on its special coverage for the 12/12/12 weddings, it just could not get any better.

And as for me, this is how 12/12/12 is going in my history. A once in a lifetime privilege. It does not happen everyday, that a former lover gets to see Β his former lady get married and witness her dream come true.

(PS – I tried to downplay this entry. I’d love to say more. But as the saying goes, I’d forever hold my peace. lol)

  1. very brave of you. maybe i wouldn’t have the courage to attend.. or maybe i could.. wouldn’t really know at this point.

    a happy post but not one of your best pieces. πŸ™‚

    • Jec says:

      @prinzelgarcia , well now at least i gave you an idea of what to expect. πŸ™‚

      And what made you say it wasn’t one of the best pieces i’ve posted? πŸ™‚

      • i can tell that you barely touched your heart when you wrote it. πŸ™‚ the feelings invested when writing were smartly limited.. haha.. you used 85% of your brain and only 15% of your heart! ^_^

  2. Jec says:

    Because there really are no more feelings involved in it to begin with. Selected words there were, yes, for obvious reasons. πŸ™‚

    It’s still a good thing that you said that it was written by heart. Well, the 15% of it at least. It’s meant to be that way. πŸ™‚

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